Suicide is it really a choice ?

It's not a choice
For many it's an only option
It's not lonely when your dead
It's not scary when your dead
It doesn't matter who believes you when your dead
No one can get in your head when your dead
You are in control of dying
You are in control of living
So why does existing feel so out of control

Just keep breathing

Breath...

Just breath....

It's all you can do is breath,

Don't let them win now,

Why can't you quiet the loud

The struggle is real

What's the deal

I hate the way you are making me feel

I don't want to be your secret no more

I can't be 5, 6,7 or 8  and i can't be your whore, I can't I hate

I'm sorry to say this

I know you will be pissed 

But I cant live 

If this is how it is

I've listened for years to you 

Inside my head 

But now it's so different I just wish I was dead

I hate the way that I have no control

I'm empty I've lost my very soul