Trust me????

When someone tells you to trust them????
Asking me to trust anyone???
The scary part is I am trusting them trusting them to play it down to help me out this hole to get me to a better place
Trust them not to repeat what I say
Trusting them to believe me, trusting them with my everything.
I never ever thought I could truly trust anyone, people who have told me to trust them in the past have done the unthinkable to me what's that to trust?
But this is different I think they genuinely care about me they have nothing to gain by betraying me, so I have to trust.

Trust is such an alien concept for me that it's a struggle it's making me nervy and very uneasy I'm on edge I'm very hypervigilint and i really don't like it but I have no choice I will trust I have to trust and I think I do actually trust. How scary is that ??? But nothing else for it. I need this to stop, need to be better or what is the point!!! Feel like I can do this we can do this. I have someone fighting my corner for first time in a long time so time to trust stop letting the fear stop me stop letting them win!